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DISCLAIMER *READ THIS*

Ok, PLEASE LISTEN (Literally I’ve done this like 3 times and NOBODY listens to me so I’m making this sticky lol)

There has been a lot of drama going on (at this time) and I just want you to listen.

First, what happens here STAYS HERE. If you don’t like a post, DO NOT ADDRESS THIS IN PERSON. Surprisingly, I’m a human.

Just a depressed anxious stupid human.

Second, I do not mention names, and if you know a post is about you, then that’s your own fault. Starting now, I’m not taking any posts down unless there is a LEGITIMATE reason, (and no, me referring to you as ‘a girl’ and being “revealed” is not a legitimate reason).

And finally, if you don’t like this blog why are you reading? There’s a wonderful X in the top right of your browser. Also, this is where I express myself. I hate keeping a diary because I just hate writing because I get hand cramps. I’m horrible at music, and I will probably play high A’s all the time. I don’t like drawing because I’m terrible and never finish. I’m very impulsive when I post, and NO IT IS NOT EASY TO TALK TO AN ADULT.

Whenever I talk to my dad I get this ‘oh stop complaining’
Whenever I talk to my mom she gets mad at me.
I don’t want to talk to teachers because like *my parents* I’ll be the lonely solider with a water pistol fighting against all of Russia armed with machine guns. It’s not easy. If you actually read my last post I have a disorder so literally ANSWERING A QUESTION in class takes courage. I always feel judged, so it’s easier to talk on the interne because they won’t see my life and judge me.
I can’t talk to childline because my parents tell me off about it.
I want somewhere to express myself. YOU CAN ALL HAVE A PLACE, SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH MY WAY?

*Literally I was considering standing in the road on the way home from school today but if I tell anyone they’ll say ‘oh you have a great life’*

(Impulsive anger rages inside)

Please actually listen and hopefully my life will be adequate

Chaio!

Your depressed sad mad angry lonely suicidal pessimistic hurt ignored ok friend,

~bloggerofthebloggish 😦

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I have a problem

Ok, so I went to the hospital today to see about my dizziness and stomach pains.

They told me probably labyrinthitis (infection of the inner ear) and they referred me to the ear department.

They said stress was also a factor, but of course, since it’s me, it had to be worse, right?

I have an anxiety disorder

I have high anxiety (constantly) and have LOTS of small panic attacks.

Basically my chest butterflies have had babies and grandchildren. Oh, and they’ve made a nest too.

I’ll be in therapy and probably have to leave school because of it (yay!)

What was surprising was that people in my class actually cared. Wow.

My best friend also cared, but my other best friend (who I actually hate jk) doesn’t care but like our relationship is salty like that.

IDK what happens in therapy but…

Chaio!

Your anxious friend,

~bloggerofthebloggish 🙂

ITS FINALLY OVER

Please note before you read this is that HE is periods 3 and 4.

OMFG I AM SO HAPPY

HE IS OVER

WOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, as you all know, HE is my death. Its my worst subject, and the teacher had the NERVE to call me a twit. (Ldt me know if u want the story 🙂 ) Other kids don’t like it either. I have HE on Mondays. We have this Monday, next Monday and the Monday after that until school’s out. At the time of this, it is 6:50PM. School ends at 3:35PM. HE is at 10:10AM.

Next week, we are missing our morning lessons for a buddy thing with the younger year (no lessons until period 7 😀 ) and the Monday after is ‘activity week’ where we do a bunch of random things. And also its the last week of school.

HE IS OVER UNTIL FEBRUARY. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

But, of course. We have sports day next week, and idk if you know but I cannot run. At all. Like, I will PASS OUT AND/OR VOMIT. I have plans next Thursday, no thank you.

IM A FLIPPING RESERVE FOR THE 15OOM. WTF

I will just email my house captain like this:

Dear [name],

Because of your inability to look at the athletics book (to which I have no time for the 1500m bc I didn’t do it in class), I will have to GRAB AN EFFING WHIP and say ‘hey did my teacher tell you I will pass out if I do it?’

Please be bothered to move and CHECK THE RECORDS and put someone in who actually can run.

Yours sincerely,

An actual student.

And also, there’s a girl in my class who can’t do high-jump. Like, she doesn’t have a medical problem. She just cannot do it.

AND THEY SIGNED HER UP FOR THE EFFING HIGH JUMP. GET YOUR FLIPPING PRIORITIES STRAIGHT.

Also I found a song that is called

‘There’s a good reason these tables are numbered honey, you just haven’t thought of it yet’ (by Panic! At the disco)

LOL

Chaio!

Your enraged friend,

~bloggerofthebloggish 🙂

 

Handcuffs have been loosened

YES! I finished exams (last week but who cares lol) and I feel like poop now. I think for *most* people my grades are pretty good, but idek the whole conversion to % and grades so plz help me out 😀 .

Let me tell you my grades bc honestly GCSEs are like 4 years away so tbh I don’t really care. (GCSE are like big exams in England, just google if u don’t know)

Maths (Non calculator) – 91%
Maths (Calculator) – 86%
English (Comprehension) – 95%
English (Creative Writing) – 95%
Religious Studies – 81%
Music – 85%
Chemistry – 78%
Biology – 69%
French – 90%
French Orals – 84%
Physics – 78%
History – 79%
Geography – 75%

Our teachers told us to not share our results but tbh I don’t care if people know.

Plz let me know what equivalent the % would be to a grade and if my grades are good or not (heck no)

Chaio!

Your dumb friend,

~bloggerofthebloggish 🙂

Instagram RANT pt 2

Now I remember why I quit…

1) People’s names in bio

If I go on someone’s profile, they have the initials of their ‘besties’. Me, well I am obviously not normal and actually put something ABOUT myself. Wow, rebellious.

2) PENG

I think every single selfie I have looked at has at least 10+ comments like ‘peng’ and ‘hottie’. Of course, every selfie except the ones on my profile. And even when I think I look adequate, I feel my ugliness seep in after a week of a comment free selfie. Wow. I should really get a face transplant. Shoot.

3) Someone choose next Insta

Not only am I ugly and selfish, I’m also unpopular (wow like I didn’t know that). I put on my story ‘someone choose next insta’. After like 3 days I get nothing. 

Someone else put the same thing 3 minutes ago. I reply saying I want to. 

“Sorry someone’s already chose”

Of course. Just my luck. I guess I’ll just occupy myself with this sharp thing in the corner. Bye.

And the painful fact that I have to go back to school on Monday and face exams. Help.

Chaio!

Your ugly selfless unpopular friend,

~bloggerofthebloggish 😦