How fun is it to feel jealous of your best friends two weeks before your birthday?
I know right
Ok, so today 2 of my best friends got big awards (like BIG awards), and one of those two friends has 3 of said award.
2 of my other friends are like me and are getting support in school, like one of them made a ‘calm down box’ with the pshe teacher
And I’m sitting in bed at 9pm bawling my eyes out
Because i never got that big award, and i don’t get support
When i cut (yes i do ok) my parents and teachers say its silly
I consistently achieve high marks but there’s always someone getting better awards than me
I sit here, waiting for someone to acknowledge the fact that I’m partly broken
So I’m just loving my school at the moment. I don’t want to be jealous because they’re my best friends and i’ll make them feel bad for being jealous
Even though i havent cut for like a month (which is good for me) i still sit up at night and cry my eyes out
People say its because im tired